childhood remembered
Saturday, February 12, 2022
Nevermore, The Covid-19 Effect
Monday, December 13, 2021
Pink House Dream
I never questioned the color, watermelon pink, for a house. It was simply grandma and grandpa’s house, a house that announced itself boldly, though it was tiny. As freighters from the Interlake Steamship Company passed going up and down, it was easy to pick out retired Chief Engineer Chester Bell’s house for the greeting salute of a long and two shorts from the steam whistle. I’ve never seen any other watermelon pink houses. Grandma had her house painted her favorite color.
Wednesday, December 1, 2021
Some Thoughts on Roe vs Wade
What does it mean to be pro-life? If a person also believes the government has the right to send men and women to war, to use war strategies that give a high probability of civilian death, or deal the death penalty to convicted men and women for crimes even though some may be innocent, they are merely anti-abortion. Those who are pro-life respect all life and the commandment, though shalt not kill. This includes war, the death penalty, assisted suicide. What about the agents of death such as social decay, violence in our families and culture and environment, the availability of lethal weapons of mass casualty and a willingness to make profit the bottom line driving our economy?
A Pro-life commitment does not mean just being anti-abortion. Think of the environment where the seeds of Roe vs Wade were planted. Women have always born the consequences of sexual encounters. A man can walk away and perhaps be totally unaware that a life has been created. Uncommitted or committed relationships have no bearing on this biological fact. Most stable cultures created elaborate social structures and courting rules that encouraged marriage commitment prior to sexual intercourse. Pregnancies that occurred prior to marriage or worse as a result of casual encounters or forced sex either by situation or physical strength or plain ignorance of bodily function happen every day. Under the beating heart of a woman, a new life is created in the warmth and protection of the womb another heart begins to beat. Bringing love and kindness to both will raise up all. May we move toward a pro-life society that protects the body, mind and soul of she who holds the miracle of two beating hearts.
Thursday, April 22, 2021
Childhood Unsupervised
“I think that I shall never see...’’ begins one of the first poems learned as a child. It resonated deeply with my experience. On this Earth Day I am remembering the poplar trees. They grew at the edge of a hardwood forest near our beloved crabapple tree. I was with a friend, free ranging the neighborhood. Standing in front of this slim stand of trees, we each grabbed hold of a tree and started climbing. The alternating branches, although slender held our little bodies. Up, up into the narrowest, tip top of the tree we climbed until our weight made the tree begin to sway downward. Once the elasticity of the tree equaled our weight, we joyfully pulled up. To my surprise we became pendulums swaying in increasing arcs of joy, wind blowing in our hair. Blessed be Mother Earth’s children who can play unsupervised.
Wednesday, March 31, 2021
I’m Not Dead Yet, Janet Survives the Pandemic
“I can see everything except what I’m looking at” is a pretty good description of the effects of macular degeneration. I once took a small paper plate and put it in line with the focal point of my vision to see what was left of my vision without moving my eyes. Try it. Many activities become impossible or difficult, driving, reading, pushing buttons on phones and screens, identifying faces to name a few.
One problem was retrieving phone messages on her cell phone and charging her cell phone. The cell phone has voice commands but first one has to push the proper button. This became a major frustration for Janet and her children and twelve grandchildren who keep in touch with her regularly.
The solution came in the form of a land line in addition to the cell phone. That left the problem of receiving messages. It is important to be able to leave loving messages to listen and re-listen when someone special has called.
I bought the simplest answering machine I could find to plug into the land line. Unfortunately, it still contained numerous buttons. Also, it could fall off the desk. I taped it securely to the desk and covered all of the buttons, except the one to push to receive messages. We recorded a greeting after numerous tries, a cheerful, “Hello, this is Janet, leave a message.”
During the Pandemic, I was granted daily access to my mother, a blessing that few relatives of those living in group settings had. I was designated a caregiver, doing showers, walks and meds. The first few months were particularly hard because residents could not congregate with each other for activities. This made the telephone vital for human contact.
About a week after setting up the greeting my sister called, alarmed by Mom’s phone greeting. I called while she was out of her room. When the greeting came on I heard, “Hello, this is Janet, I’m stiiiillll aliiiiive,” in a voice alarmingly, sounding just barely alive. How did she do that? I still have no idea. I used my phone so Mom could listen to her greeting. After a good laugh, we recorded another greeting. Mom didn’t know how or when she made the new greeting but it was surely worthy of pandemic times.
Restrictions are relaxing, meals are in the dining room. Residents gather for activities. Recently, weather permitted a visit from great-grandchildren outside with a violin concert by Greta.
All residents are vaccinated and life is returning to normal. It was a difficult year for many and I attended just a couple of the “pity parties” as mom would call them. Then, like a passing storm, her sunny disposition would return. She is a joy to me, her fellow residents and staff. So, if you’re not dead yet, be kind and enjoy the day. (Advise from a life well lived)
Saturday, January 16, 2021
Confessions of a Never Trumper
I do not know when I first became aware of Donald Trump, possibly in the 90’s in glitzy photos, always with some “Trump brand” object large or small, building, plane, tie, wine, steak. It could have been one of his divorces or affairs or when he took a full page add condemning the Central Park Five or his bankrupt Casino. Maybe I was flipping through the channels and saw him on his TV show the Apprentice. In every incident the same feeling came to me…. What an arrogant self-absorbed con-man/sleezeball.
When he started talking about running for President in the 90’s, I chuckled at the absurdity that anyone would fall for this egomaniac. He changed his party affiliation from Republican to Independent to Democrat and back to Republican. His “Birther Movement” was political genius that finally found traction over a large swath of angry voters in American. From there he fed the flames on immigration, job stagnation and rust belt and coal country rot. He fed the narrative of Christian Conservatives that they were the real victims of Liberalism. Spreading fear of having guns confiscated, immigrant invasion, multiculterism and US global involvement. He embraced Right to Life, I believe, because he saw the importance to Evangelicals and Catholics not because of any moral imperative.
I began to wonder what my father, a Union man and factory worker would think or say about Donald Trump. In my mind, he wouldn’t have liked him. He had a well-developed bull-shit-o meter. He was also a dyed in the wool Democrat. He stood on the principles of honesty and his word was his contract, not to be broken. He held us to the same high standards and was stingy with praise. Dad would never tell somebody what he or she wanted to hear just to get what he wanted. He was generous with his money even though we didn’t have a lot. I never wondered if he loved us even though he rarely said it. He was everything Trump is not.
When he famously came down the escalator and announced his bid to a mostly paid crowd, I was amused. There was such a strong field of Republican candidates, I thought, this shouldn’t last long. But it did, excruciatingly. I had my favorites in the crowd. I wanted to feel good, no matter who was elected. I was not a fan of Hillary. She had her faults. Bernie’s Socialist agenda was popular with a minority. One by one, the Republican candidates lost ground to Trump and his puffery, The Republican Convention rolled around and crowned him king. His face glowed like the Harvest Moon with a wisp of cloud passing over the top. I was suspicious when the Republican Platform on Ukraine and the Russian was changed at Trump’s request, less support for Ukraine and less criticism of Russia for invading Crimea was hard to understand, especially from Republicans. It was odd and dark. Then there was Trump asking Russia to go after Hillary and the Democrats and crowing about WikiLeaks.
Still, no one believed he could win, including Trump himself.